…but that is not all that I am.
I have a few moments in my life where I can see that I was one person on one side of the moment and a radically different person on the other side. Some of these were blissful moments and some were heavy with grief.
But one moment held both of those feelings and so much more.
(Please excuse the old-school iPhone photo quality.)
I was at Curve Camp at the Scarritt-Bennett Center in Nashville. It is a long, joyous story starring Anna Guest-Jelley and Mara Glatzel that got me here. It was June. It was HOT.
This was my first solo trip anywhere. I took my stuff up to my room. I took a few pictures (because I had just completed one of Vivian McMaster’s self-portraiture courses). And I made my way to the labryinth on campus. I didn’t have any expectations. I just thought it was an interesting practice in moving meditation.
As I walked slowly through the labyrinth, I prayed. For openness. For curiosity. For a willingness to learn and discern. And as I approached the center of the labyrinth, I heard the actual voice of God for the first time.
What you know about me is true, but that is not all that I am.
So there it was, my giant spiritual permission slip.
And I set off searching. I took lots of deep dives.
I found God on my yoga mat. In the breaths and folds and tears and sweats. I found God-through-me as my voice flowed into yoga studios, as a dozen people folded and exhaled together.
I found God inside meditations. In grassy fields and ancient ruins and big white spaces that remind me of Janet’s void.
I found God in my Reiki practice. As I connect with my guides, my ancestors, the parts of myself that are clearly intertwined with the Divine.
I found God as I connected with so many lovely souls through Reiki and Narrative Alchemy. Feeling the presence of the Divine as I interact with your energy. As we bring healing into your space and energetic experience.
I found God in my Tarot cards. In the gentle whispers of “oh honey.” In the Seven of Swords when I need to chill my jets. The Ten of Wands when I need to ask for help. The Queen of Swords when I’m playing small.
My brain and spirit are open. Curious. Willing and discerning. Simply because I was given a green light by the Energy that matters most.
And through all of this, the Spirit/God/Source/Energy that I connect to feels the same as the God of my youth. And that is incredibly freeing.
What permission do you need to feel the Divine? Maybe in a new way. Maybe at all.
Here’s a little finger labyrinth to get you going.
Here’s what’s going on in my little corner of the inter webs…
Inner Wands Tarot School is in it’s second full week and we are ON FIRE. I wasn’t kidding when I named this study after the Wands. You can get on the waitlist for the next round (maybe summer/fall?) here.
New on Youtube: My initial reaction to the Majestic Earth Tarot
I will be teaching Reiki 1 again this spring. Click here to get on the waitlist.
There are several ways to work with me. You can find those here.
